Like everyone, I have my good days and my bad days. Yesterday was a bad day. It really drove home the fact that I am on my own in a foreign country. Yesterday morning as I was preparing to force myself to go running I did something to my back. I don't know what. One moment I thought 2oh, there's a twinge in my back, I'll have to be careful of that" and the next I was on the floor in agony. Needless to say the day ended up not being as productive as I would have liked.
I had a few terrifying moments where I realized that I had no idea what to do in a crisis. I don't have the kind of support system here that I have had in the past. My roommates are both out of town, and my boyfriend is in another country. So there was no one around to help me get myself around or fetch and carry things. I was able to deposit myself on the couch with an ice pack, some ibuprofen and episodes of Greys Anatomy for the rest of the day, and am feeling considerably better (although not fully recovered) today. Now I need to get cracking on finding a doctor, just so when this sort of thing happens in the future I don't feel helpless.
It was a very clear signal from my body that I need to pace myself. Not a message that I like hearing, but a necessary one. This year is going to throw a lot of things my way and I need to be careful. Tomorrow I have one of my most physically intensive classes, which is both a good and a bad thing. Bad because I probably wont be able to participate fully. But good because this teacher knows a lot about injuries and how to deal with them. So hopefully she can help me out.
There are a lot of things right now that are really scary. Most of the time I can keep myself busy so I dont dwell on them. But I have to remember that they are there. I know that the longer I am here the less scary it will be. I will make friends, and learn where the hospitals are. I will get used to the area and how the banks work. It will take time, but in the long run I'll be ok. Deep breaths, here I go.
:-) Yes, is really all I have to say about that.
ReplyDeleteKatie, You are growing and learning alot. I pray that those times of almost 'helplessness' are when God proves Himself faithful to you, meeting your needs and surrounding you with His angels while giving you 'peace' in your spirit. He will never leave you or forsake you.
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the "back" thing. David's sister Nancy is having muscle issues and seeing her deal with it remind me of the many times over the years that I've had them. I'm praying for you - David's Dad